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i know you're all dying to know what happened there so i will tell you as much as i can without rambling. but hey, you know me, i wouldnt be Betchy if i didnt ramble a little bit......right?

Well after my last entry (not the last one, i mean the last PROPER one) and i mean literally two hours after i wrote it, i got a text message from DAVIE telling me that he was in love with me!!! i know!!! i was like, THE happiest girl in the world. for about a day. He said he didnt want to rush into a relationship or anything because he didnt want to risk things not working out. He did, however,start making a real effort with me, and he was calling and texting me all the time. One Thursday night i was going out with Sal, Lisa, and a few others, and i decided to invite DAVIE along. He was absolutely brilliant all night. normally he doesnt bother talking to my friends very much, but he had them all entertained, was telling them all how much he thought of me, and basically, just being the perfect man. He got on particularly well with Sal, which, at the time, i thought was great. All that night he kept saying how much he liked her, the next day he was saying the same, and i started to make a joke out of it and kept saying "Awww, have you got a little crush on my Sally?"

A few things happened over the next couple of weeks that didnt exactly fill me with joy. For example, Sal and DAVIE were texting each other all the time, which is fine, except that they werent telling me about it. The thing that made this worse was that me and Sal were getting really close again. Long time readers will know that me and Sal have had a very much turbulent friendship in he past, but every time we fall out she comes crawling back to me and promises nothing like it will happen again, and i always fall for it. Anyway, it seemed that whenever me, Sal and DAVIE went out together, they would talk to each other more than me, and me and DAVIE would have a row. This happened a couple of times, and one night resulted in me cutting myself with a bit of broken bottle. and i havent done that in years.

After that i decided that enough was enough, and i texted DAVIE to say that i neeeded some time out from him for a few weeks, that i loved him still and would be thinking about him, but my head was messed up, and i needed to sort it out, and i couldnt do that if i was still in contact with him. i told him to just give me a few weeks.

Also during this time, Sal was messing about with several different men. Which you might not think is that bad until i tell you that Sal has a boyfriend she has been with for 7 years, they have a flat together, and an 18 month old son. Sal doesnt have to work because Mike gives her everything she could possibly ever want, he gives her money to go out 3 or 4 times a week, she basically wants for nothing. Sal had been having an affair with this one bloke, Miles, for months, and had even slept with him in her and Mikes bed!!! but then another few men started to creep onto the scene, and she was snogging different blokes every time we went out, having them round her flat and stuff while Mike was at work, it was geting a bit much. And she kept asking me, Lisa and Lindz to cover for her all the time, which was ok to start with, but then it became all the time, and i thought, this is just getting ridiculous.

Another thing that happened was i got robbed.But it was the strangest thing, because the only thing that got taked was my rent money, which was in a brown envelope. which led me to believe it was someone i knew. The first person everyone said was DAVIE, but i know it wasnt him, because i was with him the night it happened. and i still believe it wasnt him. Just after i text DAVIE saying i needed space, me and Sal were in Latino's one night, and in he strolled!!! i was suprised to see him, but he said h'd only come in on the off chance to see if we were there (i later found out that Sal had told him to come in there and meet us), but i wasnt that thrilled to see him because i had told him i needed a bit of time. anyway he got cross, left without saying goodbye, then later text me saying he wanted nothing more to do with me. And by that point, i was so tired of worrying about him that i was actually a bit relieved.

That Saturday, 2 things happened. the first was that i met Jonah. the second was that Sal wnet home with a bloke, slept with him, then, when she couldnt get home, she got Mike to come and get her, at 5am, he had to get little George up out of bed, to go collect his mother who had been fucking some other bloke all night. she asked me to tell Mike if he asked, that she had been at some girl called Kates house. i said "I hope for your sake he doesnt ask me Sal, because after that stunt, i refuse to lie for you anymore"

On the Monday i got a couple of really horrid texts from DAVIE, saying that i had accused him of robbing my house, that i ould just fuck off and have fun with my new bloke, blah blah blah. i was really confused because i hadnt accused him of robbing me, and also how had he found out about Jonah? I asked Sal if she had spoken to him, and she said no, that she was still mad at him for texting me horrid things the previous week.

Anyway, during a conversation between me The Mafia, and Lindz, a few things came to light.

Point 1
Sal had not only spoken to DAVIE without telling me, it had been a regular occurance.

Point 2
These phone calls were nothing to do with me and her trying to sort things out between us as she later claimed.

Point 3
Davie had also been round to her flat, more than once, and she had failed to even mention it.

Point 4
She told DAVIE that i was sleeping around. Admiteddly i have slept around, but this was one time i actually wasnt.

Point5
she told DAVIE that i accused him of robbing my house.

The night before i found all this out, she had come to my flat in tears, claiming that her and Mike had a big fight and he'd hit her in the face and dislocated her jaw. there wasnt a mark on her. the next morning she text me saying she was staying at her friends. by this point i didnt care. i knew what i was going to do. i gathered my allies (The Mafia and Lindzo), and i rang Mike to see if he was ok.He asked if i would come and meet him for a drink. i said yes. we decided Mike didnt deserve to be lied to anymore, and any questions he asked we would give him truthful answers. and that was what we did. we told him about Sal and the mn that had been in his flat and everyting else, and he seemed to take it all quite well considering. But within a few days he took her back. The thing that makes me sad is that she hasnt gone back because she loves Mike, or even for Georges sake. its because she has got nothing with out him. the 3 of us have since had the nasty texts, the screaming phone calls, and everyting else that Sal does so predictably, but none of it has bothered me. i know that i did the right thing. i know it wasnt me who was in the wrong. i know it wasnt me cheating on my babys father while he was working to support me. and i know it wasnt me going behind my friends back with the one person she loved so dearly. that girl is pure poison.

So anyway, me and DAVIE are now friends. he admitted to me on Saturday that he is back on the gear, and like i said, i am devestated. But i dont get mad with him, or upset with him, because whats the point? he's going to do it whether i shout and ball at him or not. All i can do is be here for him. he needs to know that there is at least one person in his life who will always be there for him. i still love him, but its different now. i dont want to be with him, i just want to be there for him. to look after him. and thats what i am trying to do.

So anyway, my new man. well he's pretty much textbook perfect. 33, good job, nice place (just across the road from mine, now thats handy Harry!), good looking, buys me drinks, and likes to have sex. A LOT!!!! its only been a couple of weeks, so we'll see how things go, but so far, so good. I'm at his now, he's just taken his kids down the shop!!!

Oh! and I've had my hair cut!!!! and i also have a fringe! who's the girl with the pretty hair? "Becky! Becky!"

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