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i did get quite drunk though. who am i kidding, i was wankered!!! i'm still a little drunk now if i'm honest!! which is always fun, because that means my hangover will kick in around 1pm, just in time for me to throw up my lunch.

hows this for a bit of excitement. right outside my work last night, in dolphin square, someone was beaten to death. there are police everywhere, and its all roped off. actually last night loads of ambulances kept going past the pub, but where we were so drunk we kept saying "look, that poor ambulance cant find who its looking for, it keeps going round and round!!!" i feel a bit mean saying its exciting, its not exciting at all, its horrible. and the sad thing is, its bound to be one of our customers. every time a body is found in this town it is one of our customers. sad but true.

there was a slight fork in the pavement last night though. jason was in the balmoral. grrrrr. now for you al to understand the jason situation, i suggest you put you feet up, grab a cuppa, and get comfortable, coz this could take some time.

during the war............

only joking, here we go.

my ex-boyfriend wizz has two brothers, called dean and jason. both of whom i have had things with previously. back in 2000, when i was a mere 18 year old, i spotted a good looking goatfish giving me the eye on the dance floor (i was only 9 stone back then). so i eyed back, he came over, we shmeed, exchanged names, (his was dean), and then exchanged numbers. he phoned within a couple of days, we started going out, slept together a few times, didnt work out, he got back with his ex, and that was that. or so i thought. several weeks after us breaking up (and we were still friends, and i became friends with his girlfriend lisa) i started getting texts from a number i didnt know, saying things like "i've seen you around, i think your tromp,do you want to go out" stuff like that, for days and days i was getting them. finally i rang the number with my number witheld

"hello, who's this?" i said

"its jason, who's this?" he said

"its becky. jason who? is that deans brother? why are you texting me youhave a girlfriend."i said (i knew he had a girlfriend, because when i was with dean he kept saying how he didnt like his brothers new girlfriend)

"no, i'm not with her anymore. so what do you say, do you want to go out or something?" he said.

"i'm not sure. give me a call in a few days, and i'll see." i said.

"oh. o.k. but before you go can i tell you something? the first time i laid eyes on you it was love at first sight. i think you are the most beautiful girl i have ever seen, and i was gutted my brother got there first." he said. ah, how incredibly sweet, you are thinking. no no. here is where it starts to go downhill.

we started having a bit of a phone realtionship, because we were never out on the same nights. we would be on the phone for hours and hours, and i started to really like him. i still had only met him once, when i was with dean, but i felt like i really knew him. anyway one night we were talking, and he let slip something about "jody". who was the girlfriend he had supposedly broken up with. turns out he hadnt. but whenever i saw his name come up on the phone, i couldnt not answer. and i wasnt doing anything wrong,i was only talking and texting.but i knew he liked me. and i really liked him.anyway soon after this, my shifts at work changed and i started going out on friday nights as well as saturdays. that was jason night. the first time i saw him out, my parents were away for the weekend. we spent all night shmeeing in uropa (that was what time was called before) then went back to mine. we stayed up until 7am talking, and he said he was in love with me, and he was going to finish with jody. and i believed him. i really and truly believed him. i did not sleep with him that night, it wasnt until several weeks later that we finally did that. the warning bells should have been going off in my head "come on bec, if he hasnt done it now he never will" but by this time i was in love with him too, and would have done anything to be with him.

somewhere along the way in all this, i met and became friends with danny, who is jodys brother. he had heard rumors about me and jason, but i managed to convince him it was all lies. and he believd me, and we became really good mates. to this day it kills me that i lied to him, because he stuck up for me so many times when i had trouble with people. danny is a big softie when you get to know him, but toother people he is quite scary. he is quite hard.

anyway, many, many things happened between me and jason, many nights of tears and "if you love me just finish with her!!" and him "i cant danny will kill me". this whole situation went on for two years. finally i had enough.and i gave him a deadline.

"you finish with her by the end of next week or that is it. no more me and you. i cant keep on like this jason, you are not letting me have a life. i love you, and i dont want to lose you, but i am fed up of being second best. you have got until friday." i said

"ok babe. i wont let you down this time i promise." he said

thursady night, i was just finishing work at sainsburys (it is may 2002 by this time) and i had hundreds of missed calls from jason on my phone. then i get a text from danny "jason has admitted he has been sleeping with you for the last 2 years. if you know whats good for you keep away from me and my family." that was fair enough. it was his sister at the endof the day, i would have been the same if someone had hurt my sister. i was sad to lose danny as a mate though. then my phone rings. it is jason. "i've done it. i text her and told her its over. i'm in bridgewater at the moment, because i know she will come and find me. i will come round yours tomorrow night at 6." he said all in a hurry.

"wait, babe are you ok? what has she said?have you spoke to her? i cant believe you done it by text!!" i said

"i'm ok, i just need to get my haed round it all. i'm going to stay at my brothers (wizz's) tonight ok? i'll speak to you tomorrow. i love you ok? nothing is going to change that."

anyway to cut a long story short, i was due to go to majorca on the saturday, 2 days later. everything was fine with him when i left, while i was there i spoke to him every day. when i got home nothing. couldnt get hold of him for love nor money. i found out he had gotten back with jody two days after i left. he was back with her when i was speaking to him on the phone. what a cunt. i have never spoken to him since. jody is now 8 months pregnant with his baby. and me and danny are friends again, that is who gives us free drinks in the balmoral. and they quite often come in. which is nice for me.

Then of course wizz happened. i know it sounds awful that they are all three brothers, and makes me sound like a sket, but they were all different circumstances, and its not like i went out and said "i know, i think i will sleep with three brothers." well obviously i knew wizz through the othee two, and legs' mark works with him, and basically we all kept going out as a group, he was having a really bad time with his wife, to the point he tried to kill himself she made him so miserable, i basically lent a friendly ear, he "fell in love with me" as he put it, i wasnt keen, he left kyli, i spent more time with him, we started shmeeing, then doing other naughty things, moved in together, his mum phoned me up, gave me a load of abuse (which i cant really blame her for, i had been with all her sons), told me she would never accept me, put loads of pressure on him, then he ended up kicking me out on my birthday, and he got back with kyli. and now he is unhappy again. and i am glad, because i am not.

so thats that. i really did love jason, and at the time i really thought i loved wizz, but i think back now and i just was lonely and wanted to be with someone. i still see them all about, i'm on speaking terms with dean and wizz, and probably would be with jason except he and jody are practiacally joined. except for last night in the balmoral, but i have no desire to speak to him. but i did love him. and i still like wizz. i'm kind of glad things didnt work out now, although i wasnt at the time. and he is a real sweetie. but that family has haunted me.

funniest thing???

they are both ugly.

goofy

skinny

big noses

but hell they know what to do with whats in their trousers!!!!!!!

fin

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